If you missed part 1 & 2 of my surprising journey to better health and wellness, please read that first, here (part 1) and here (part 2). This is the conclusion to my 3-part story, but really, it is just the beginning of my journey!
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If you missed part 1 of my surprising journey to better health and wellness, please read that first, here.
I left my doctor’s office, thinking I would just cure myself with nutrition and fitness (nevermind the fact that I loathed working out and loved donuts), and got myself on the wait list to begin the partial inpatient day hospital in January. And unexpectedly, things began to spiral really, really quickly. My mood worsened, and it took nothing to set me off. I was snapping at everyone, and basically woke up yelling. Sun up to sun down, I was yelling. If any one thing went slightly wrong, I collapsed into a puddle of tears. Every single tiny inconvenience – or anything really – even a child asking a question – was incredibly irritating to me. The process to get into the day hospital (read: insurance nightmare) was enormously challenging for my increasingly fragile state, and I remember standing at my kitchen island, ugly crying tears of frustration, so many times. I was starting to question my decision to skip medication, because I still hadn’t gotten off the couch, or removed my face from the piles of candy I was eating.
Becoming a mother is the most magical time in a woman’s life. We may be sleep deprived, hungry, and in need of a long, hot shower, but the second we get a whiff of that little one’s head, everything else fades away. If you have a new mom in your life, this holiday season is a great time to give her the goods that will help her enjoy those sweet moments while getting through the day to day trudge of having a newborn. We scoured the registries and have put together our list of must-have gifts for the new mom!
Depression has been something that has clung to me like an unwanted acquaintance, and it became more prevalent after my first daughter was born. It has taken over significant chunks of my life and ruined times that I should have been reveling in the magic of our growing family. I wish it wasn’t a part of me, and I have done my best to keep it batted down from affecting those I love the most. But there are times where it rears its ugly head and there seems to be nothing I can do from stopping it.
I have had some level of postpartum depression with each subsequent birth of my three daughters. However, after my last child was born in November of 2015 my postpartum depression took a dive into the darkest parts of my soul and brought out a person I did not recognize. I am now able to look back from the other side, and this letter is to the people most affected by those negative days.
Postpartum depression and anxiety are mood disorders that occur after a woman experiences childbirth. Anyone can experience postpartum depression or anxiety – it does not discriminate based on age or ethnicity. It is a hard disorder to pinpoint because there are several other variables in which people may think are the cause of the sudden change of mood, such as exhaustion and sleep deprivation, lifestyle change, possible issues with breastfeeding, and physical recovery.